i've made lists and crossed everything off.

the time is currently 11:52 PM on january 7th, 2009. i leave for new york city tomorrow morning...early morning...4:15AM to be exact. i have had horrible insomnia for the last three days, and i'm not sure why. is the anticipation too much? am i stressed? who knows. right now i'm debating whether to try to go to sleep and get three and a half hours, or to just stay up all night and try and sleep on the plane. well, either way i'll be sleeping on the plane. three and a half hours is in the middle of the sleep cycle, so could very well make me more tired than not sleeping at all. it doesn't help that i'm not tired at all right now. i finished packing an hour or two ago. i always get the feeling that i'm forgetting something, but i have no idea what it might be. i've made lists and crossed everything off, so i can't imagine i've forgotten something that my life depends on. the feeling is much more intense when it's a long trip like this. it's not like going home for a weekend, where most things i'd forget are easily accessible. i'm going to freaking new york and dc! it still hasn't sunk in completely, and i don't think it will until the plane lands. i feel so blessed to be able to go on a trip like this. even though it's more focused on print media and journalism, that's okay. the marketing and advertising field penetrates every kind of media, and who knows? i may discover something i'd be interested in doing that i haven't thought of yet or realized.

i know that tomorrow i will regret not getting more sleep. it is nearly impossible for me to go to bed before midnight any more, not matter how little sleep i got the night before. maybe the lack of sleep will help me adjust to NY time...i'll be really tired and will hopefully be able to fall asleep at a normal hour, even though it's three hours ahead. i haven't had to deal with a time change in a long time. the farthest i've gone in probably five years is utah, which i'm not sure even has a time change...?

i should really try to sleep, or at least get into my bed and rest. haha. as if. wow, i haven't used that phrase in a very long time. yikes.