i won't feel bad when i don't do whatever i set out to do.

i don't make new year's resolutions. we all say the same things ("lose weight," "be a better person"...etc.) but we never keep them. i will admit that i, too, am an offender of this crime. i've decided that i'm just not going to make resolutions any more. that way, i won't feel bad when i don't do whatever i set out to do, simply because another day arrived, and it happened to be the start of the next year. i'm over it.

my fingers hurt from too much guitar playing. it's a good hurt, though. one of the pains that results from something beneficial, so it's actually a good pain, you know? it's a pain that means i'm getting better. every time i practice, i get better. i really like the guitar. i think it's because i can just pick it up and play. when i played band instruments, i felt like it was always a huge production to practice for a half hour. when i played the oboe, i had to put it together, set up my music stand, get out all my music, and soak my reed in water for five to ten minutes before i could actually start playing. it was too much effort.

spokane has gotten six feet of snow this winter already, from december to now. i just got back to school last night at midnight. my flight was scheduled to leave seatac at 9:00 and land in spokane at 9:58. i boarded the plane at 8:30, as did all the passengers. it was snowing all around seattle, so i was afraid my flight would be delayed, but when i arrived at the airport and boarded the plane, every sign said it was on time. once we all got situated on the plane, we proceeded to wait, confused about why we hadn't left yet. they told us to turn off all of our electronic devices, so we could take off. after a half hour without any explanation as to why we hadn't pushed off yet, i turned my cell phone on to inform my ride that we'd be late. then, they told us to turn off our phones and such because we'd be pushing off "any moment now." another half hour ticks by. i got my phone out yet again to text my friend. eventually they started de-icing the plane, which of course took twenty minutes. we didn't end up taking off until 10:30. we sat on the plane for two hours without any explanation from the crew. it was really frustrating that we all had no idea what was happening. then of course, the sky was dumping mounds of snow onto wonderful spokompton. i got back to campus at midnight (i had class at 9am), and had to trudge through the snow-covered parking lot and sidewalks to my room. it was a disaster. luckily, i'm finally settled back in. there's so much snow, though, and i hate it. i will admit that it's really beautiful and there's something calming about walking around campus with the snow lightly falling around you. i just hate that it makes me a prisoner.

i'm leaving for new york in three days. it's finally starting to sink in, a little bit. i don't think it'll fully sink in until i'm actually there. i cannot wait.