a homecoming present for champions.

so here i am again on a saturday night. this has been my life for the last few months. in exactly three weeks from today, i will be home, safe and sound [and happy]. i'm sick of feeling alone and having nothing to do.

blah. i'm so sick of dealing with all this crap. i miss my room, my bed. i miss being able to do whatever i want in my room whenever i want. i just want to go home.

moneta is coming to play in spokane on may 8th. it's the thursday before finals, but i'm hoping i'll be able to find someone to go with me. i miss seeing those guys so much. i haven't seen them since december, which is way too long. i'm almost positive this is their first time to spokane, so i really want to be there to support them. it's at the BLVD, and i haven't been to a show there yet, so it will be fun to see another venue. they're playing with no bragging rights, who are also pretty good. i think the show's only $8 or so, which is really cheap.

i ended up not going to holyfield. i couldn't find anyone to go with me. for me, it's worse to go alone than not at all. i would be so bored between bands, and i'd just feel so awkward being there alone. concerts aren't really something you do alone. i was devastated. luckily they are playing at the showbox on may 23rd with moneta, so i'll get to see both of them then for sure! that show's going to be amazing. it's just about a week after i get home, so it's a perfect homecoming present for me :]

i got 60% on my old testament test that i took on monday. oh yes. what annoys me is that i studied for about 4-5 hours, and still did that poorly. i hate that class so much. i took it because i thought it would be good to learn more about the old testament, since so many churches focus on preaching from the new testament. there was so much of it that i didn't know, and i thought this class would be the perfect opportunity to learn more. false. this class has been the biggest waste of time in my life. the professor's lectures are so unorganized. he's just all over the place, and i can never really follow. i don't feel like i've learned much, and i have a C+ in the class. it's not even required for my major or general education requirement and it's going to bring my gpa down. hopefully, i'll be able to scrape together a B- by then end of the semester. i don't want to ever get less than a B- in college. i'm really disappointed that it hasn't been a good class.

i think next semester is going to be a good one. i'm really excited to have a new start - new classes, new dorm, new roommate, new friends, [new love interests? haha]. i'm taking beginning guitar class next semester too, which i'm super pumped for. i've been wanting to learn for a couple years now, and never had the time or will power to sit down and teach myself, so i'm excited to finally start learning. hopefully i will enjoy it. i love piano, and it's extremely therapeutic for me, so i hope that guitar will do the same....once i'm good enough to actually play stuff.

it's only 10:30, but i feel like going to sleep. what am i doing right now? nothing. i either go to bed now, which will most likely result in waking up early, and do nothing tomorrow, or i stay up late doing nothing and wake up late tomorrow. which sounds more fun to you? i am actually kind of tired right now, despite the fact that i woke up at 12:30 today. i really have no reason to be tired. maybe the loneliness and lack of friends is so draining that it's actually making me tired. wouldn't that be great? gosh, i just can't wait till summer, when i will actually have a social life. it's gonna be great. though, i still have no idea where i'm going to work, which is kind of stressing me out....actually, it's really stressing me out. i'm going to have to go job hunting pretty much the week i get home, which is going to majorly suck.

i only have to suffer through three more weeks here. i hope i can make it without losing my mind.