nasty, ugly, creeper town, nothing-to-do spokompton.

it's saturday at 3:20 pm. i leave tomorrow morning at 11ish to head back to spokompton and start another year of school. it hasn't really sunk in yet that it's happening...right now. it doesn't feel like a whole year has gone by. it feels like just yesterday that i was packing to go to my first year of college. the anticipation was insane and i was so nervous about making friends and meeting so many new people. not to mention, i absolutely loath get-to-know-you activities. luckily, i won't have too many to go to this year, since i'm not a freshman any more! weird. unfortunately, going to back to school means leaving beautiful seattle and returning to nasty, ugly, creeper town, nothing-to-do spokompton. sounds like a blasty blast. but, i am really excited for my room....ballard basement! i'm pumped.

i'm heartbroken in every sense of the word. stephenie meyer's rough draft of midnight sun got leaked on the internet. she wasn't even half way finished. now, she's decided that she's putting it on hold indefinitely. i am crushed. i was sooooo looking forward to reading twilight from edward's perspective. she at least posted the draft on her website, and it's about 265 pages, which is still a lot, but it's not the whole book. it's not finished. i'm sad that some stupid person had to go ruin this for everyone, including stephenie. i respect her decision since this incident hurt her so badly, but she's going to have a LOT of really, really, really disappointed twilighters. i hope that in a couple months [or however long it may take] she will change her mind and finish writing it and publish it so we can all truly enjoy it. it just sucks because the actions of one person have ruined it for everyone. i'm really sad.

so enough about that sadness. i'm pretty much having a panic attack inside right now. i'm not completely done packing and i'm stressing out pretty bad. my room is like a death trap right now with all sorts of rubber made containers and crap strewn every where. i leave tomorrow and i'm not ready. i'm not ready to face everyone at school, to be around the constant 'happy' all the time. ugh, and no cable, which means i won't be able to watch project runway! i'm hecka pissed about that. plus, i'm definitely going to miss my pups. though, i've already said goodbye to a bunch of people, and it hasn't been as hard as it was last year, or as hard as i was expecting it to be, which is good. i think this is the first time that i haven't cried when saying goodbye to my sister. i'm getting better, i guess. i probably should get back to packing, since i just revealed that i'm stressing out about it...