overall, it was just really awkward.

last night i thought of all of these things to write about, but was too tired. now i forgot everything interesting that i had planned on writing. so now you get to read about nothing important.

my thumbs been hurting a lot lately. it's been really sore the last few days, and i can't figure out why. the muscles and tendons just don't feel very happy with me right now. this kind of makes me worry about how bad it's going to be in a few years from now, or when i'm fifty. it scares me that it may just get worse until when i'm really old, i won't even be able to use it. it just sucks. hopefully it will feel better tomorrow...though that's what i said a few days ago.

i went riding yesterday. i rode this horse named jack, who's apparently won everything there is to win in the appaloosa world. if you ask me, he wasn't that amazing. plus he threw a fit the entire time i was riding him, and tried to run me into the wall while i was tacking up. he was a brat. he was also really big, about 16.2...which was weird for me. i'm used to riding little 15 hand arabians. he was built like a tank. his trot was absolutely huge and he covered a ton of ground with each step. it was hard to get used to, compared to what i've been riding for the last few years. i honestly just wish i could ride a normal horse. the horse i rode the first few times, dj, was relatively normal, and she was really sweet. then i rode a spazzy arab named sonny, who didn't really know how to trot in a forward motion or stop. then i rode a tennessee walker named tiffany, who tried really, really hard to buck me off and then laid down and tried to roll over on me. now i'm riding a crazy appaloosa (without spots) who randomly turns on his haunches, tries to buck, and refuses to settle down. seriously, can i just ride a normal horse for once? oh, and i have wonderful blisters on my ring fingers from pulling on the reins so hard, and my shoulders are sore from pulling so hard.

so new heights came to play a lunch time show at whitworth yesterday. it was really sad...me and emilie were the only people actually listening. then when a new class period started, we were two of about five people still there (i, of course, skipped class, haha). we hung out in there for a few minutes after they were done playing, and then got up to leave. as we were walking out, their guitar player offered us some skittles, so we said sure. then the lead singer introduced himself to us, so we told him our names and such. he thanked us for coming out to the show. then he was like "did one of you leave us a comment on myspace?" and i was like, "uh...yea, i think that was me" and they're all like "oh, ya! i remember you now, maddie!" "i remember too!" "ya, me too" "awesome!". it was kinda awkward. then i told them that i had skipped class to come, and then they offered me more skittles, but i was wearing these glove things, so i couldn't really grab them. it was awkward. then they thanked us again for coming out, and said they wished they could hang out more but they had to leave. they said they hoped to see us at a show this summer in seattle, and i said "ya, for sure." overall, it was just really awkward. and i felt really bad for them because they drove five hours to play for pretty much two people, haha. well, at least i enjoyed it. and hopefully they'll be having some seattle shows that i can go to this summer.

it's a wonderfully sunny day today, and i love it like nobody's business. it's not too warm - low 60's, but it's still nice, and i don't need a jacket. pretty much the entire student body is outside. the lawns are littered with blankets and bodies soaking in the warm rays. it's fantastic.

i forgot to water one of my plants for two or three days...i watered it today, but it may beyond saving. hopefully i will be able to resurrect it.

i'm currently obsessed with the following song...

Go On, by Holyfield:
I wanted to remember how i came to you, Lord
I'll sing about your honesty to grow in you more
the times that you have captured me, you never left me
and the times that i have said goodbye, you held me closer to you
Go on and chase him, you're nothing without him.
Go on and chase him, you're nothing without him.
Don't give in, live your life.

obviously, most of that is repeated, but it's basically the most amazing song. i could listen to it all day.

sooo, 14 days. ahh! i can't believe that i will be going home in two weeks. it's so surreal. oh man, and moneta is coming in 6 days...sooooo pumped for that!