i'm so over it. i'm so done.
so anyways, haha... i can't believe tomorrow is march 1st. it seems so unreal. i get to go home in 21 days. three weeks exactly. it was kind of a miracle actually. i found a flight home that cost 29 dollars! it leaves at 7am, but hey, 3o bucks is practically nothing. it would have been 75 if i were to fly home on thursday night, so i'm saving about 45 bucks, which is pretty sweet. it's kinda crazy because driving home would easily cost more than that with the high gas prices nowadays.
i just bought an amazing album on itunes that i've been completely obsessed with: there came a lion by Ivoryline. it is so wonderful in every way. i've been listening to it non-stop since i bought it a few days ago. plus, it was only 7.99, which was pretty much a steal.
well, classes haven't improved any. my old testament class started out okay this semester, but now i never have any idea what the professor is talking about. he uses all these terms that he has apparently discussed in class, but i have no idea what they mean. it's just hard to sit in class listening to someone and be just slightly confused throughout the entire lecture. then of course, there's math, which is pretty much a joke. it's so easy, that i finished the first test in 25 minutes when it was written to take at least 40 minutes. and people in it are so dumb that they don't even know how to plug numbers into formulas. i guess it's just really frustrating after taking calculus last year to have to move to the very easiest math class because it's required for my major. blah. it's dumb. i'm still liking sociology, one of my only good classes. philosophy of religion is super, super interesting, but it's a 300 level class, and i can definitely tell. the reading is really difficult and the subject matter is really heavy, and sometimes really hard to understand. it doesn't help that i don't have a philosophical mind AT ALL. seriously, people will say things in class and i'm just baffled...i think to myself "wow, i never would have thought of it that way...ever." or "i have no idea how you figured that out." it's just kind of mind boggling. it really makes me think, but it's also extremely challenging.
i went out to lunch with rebecca and lauren today at red robin, and then me and lauren went to see Penelope. it was soo cute. it was really fairytale-ie, but i really liked it a lot, and it definitely had a good message.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
a hermit in my own head.
i've been having some doubts lately...doubts about whether whitworth is where God wants me, or if it's where i'm supposed to be right now. there are a lot of reasons. tuition cost is already ridiculous, but is increasing to $35,120 for next year. i haven't really liked most of my classes...out of all of my professors the entire year, i've had two that have been really good....and some of them were, erm, bad. not to mention, i hate the weather and the area in general. plus, i haven't really made any friends here, besides Emilie, who lives in Bellevue anyway, so i'd be able to see her during the summer and stuff. i'm considering transferring to azusa pacific university or the master's college. hopefully i'll be able to go visit my sister during spring break so i can visit the schools again to see if it's really something i want to do. i haven't decided for sure yet what i'm going to do, but i'm seriously considering transferring.
i've been like a hermit for the last few days. i started getting sick last friday, getting progressively worse each day. i finally went to the health center on tuesday and found out that i have another sinus infection. yipee. so now i'm on antibiotics and prednisone so i can actually breathe while i'm getting better. i don't understand while i'm always sick. this will be the third time that i've been seriously sick since coming to college, which is pretty ridiculous.
thankfully this semester is going by really quickly. the weeks go by so fast, that by the time it's friday, it feels like no time has gone by at all. i can't believe that february is over is a little over a week. i love it when the time flies by like this.
i've been really tired lately. and i hate that.
Friday, February 15, 2008
it kinda made my day
i got two packages yesterday, one from my mom and one from my sister full of chocolater. it kinda made my day. getting any mail that isn't school distributed makes my day. today i got a letter/disney mints (the BEST mints) from my other sister. it included a condensed list of our inside jokes. i was literally laughing out loud (not obnoxiously, of course) in the coffee shop while i was reading it. it just brought back so many good times...and some not so good, but hilarious times. like over christmas break, me and rachel went to see a movie with our parents. they made us go to the theatre to reserve seats while they got popcorn and drinks. when we were walking to our theatre, we hear this "RAAAAAAAACHELLLLLLLLLL" booming across the lobby. we turn around and everyone in the lobby is starting at our dad. we just start cracking up like no other, like i could barely stand because i was laughing so hard. it's funny how things change when you get older. a few years ago, i would have been mortified, but now, it's just absolutely hilarious...mostly because i knew i probably wouldn't know anyone there, and if i did, we don't go to the same school any more so i'll never have to see them.
my math class was cancelled this morning. it kinda made my day. it meant that i got an extra hour or so of sleep, which definitely made me a happier person. though, i was in such a routine of getting up at 8, that i kept waking up afraid that i was supposed to be awake or in class already. it was kind of stressing me out, actually, but being able to go back to sleep knowing i didn't have to be in class was a great feeling. i don't know, i never have to get up super early. my first class isn't until 9:20 on monday, wednesday, friday and at 9:30 on tuesday, thursday. I never get up earlier than 8, unless i have to go to the hub to get breakfast instead of eating in my room. i've actually been pretty lucky not having an 8:00 class....unlike rebecca who has had one 4/5 days of the school week both last semester and this semester.
me and emilie are going out to dinner and then to see fool's gold tonight. i hope it's good. i really just can't wait to get off campus. plus, the downtown area of spokane is a lot nicer than the area whitworth is in...still sketch, but not quite as much as here. i really am not a sane person if i don't get off campus at least once a week. i get really stir crazy.
once i get my car here, i'm going to try to find a place to ride. the lady that i talked to way back in october offered me a care lease on her horse, which i cannot afford at all. i emailed her to see if i could at least come ride a couple times a week once i get my car here, but she hasn't emailed back yet. the only downfall with it is that it is about a half hour away. if i could find a place closer, it would be ideal, but it's harder to find places to ride for free when it's not a single horse owner. barn managers or people who run lesson programs are less likely to offer free riding opportunities, even if it is with naughty horses. i think that will really make me a much happier person to find a place to ride. honestly, even just a place where i can go hang with the horses would be better than nothing. who knows, maybe i'll be able to find a part time job teaching lessons or doing barn work. that would be awesome.
as my sociology professor would say on fridays while we're getting ready to leave: "don't drink and drive."
my math class was cancelled this morning. it kinda made my day. it meant that i got an extra hour or so of sleep, which definitely made me a happier person. though, i was in such a routine of getting up at 8, that i kept waking up afraid that i was supposed to be awake or in class already. it was kind of stressing me out, actually, but being able to go back to sleep knowing i didn't have to be in class was a great feeling. i don't know, i never have to get up super early. my first class isn't until 9:20 on monday, wednesday, friday and at 9:30 on tuesday, thursday. I never get up earlier than 8, unless i have to go to the hub to get breakfast instead of eating in my room. i've actually been pretty lucky not having an 8:00 class....unlike rebecca who has had one 4/5 days of the school week both last semester and this semester.
me and emilie are going out to dinner and then to see fool's gold tonight. i hope it's good. i really just can't wait to get off campus. plus, the downtown area of spokane is a lot nicer than the area whitworth is in...still sketch, but not quite as much as here. i really am not a sane person if i don't get off campus at least once a week. i get really stir crazy.
once i get my car here, i'm going to try to find a place to ride. the lady that i talked to way back in october offered me a care lease on her horse, which i cannot afford at all. i emailed her to see if i could at least come ride a couple times a week once i get my car here, but she hasn't emailed back yet. the only downfall with it is that it is about a half hour away. if i could find a place closer, it would be ideal, but it's harder to find places to ride for free when it's not a single horse owner. barn managers or people who run lesson programs are less likely to offer free riding opportunities, even if it is with naughty horses. i think that will really make me a much happier person to find a place to ride. honestly, even just a place where i can go hang with the horses would be better than nothing. who knows, maybe i'll be able to find a part time job teaching lessons or doing barn work. that would be awesome.
as my sociology professor would say on fridays while we're getting ready to leave: "don't drink and drive."
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
1/8 done
this week is going by amazingly fast, which is wonderful. last week just seemed to draw out like no other, so it's a much needed and accepted change of pace. classes are going well, though i'm only in the second week, so who knows how i'll feel in another month. i think right now my favorite class is probably sociology. it's really ironic actually because initially i was taking that class because it satisfied the "social science" requirement, and it sounded like the best of all my options. it is surprisingly very interesting, which i could partially credit to having an amazing professor. who knew that learning about human behavior could be so interesting? i never would have guessed it. i think the thing i like about it is that he doesn't just stand there and lecture the whole time. usually every class we watch a news video and discuss it...plus there's usually a lot of discussion throughout the entire class period. even though i am not one to speak up in class, it's a lot more interesting to listen to 20 people talk throughout the period rather than just one.
my math class is really wonderful...or something. it so easy - finite math for social sciences. today we learned about budgeting and taxes, which has really made me realize that i don't keep good enough track of my money. rebecca let me put her microsoft money on my computer, so i'm starting to work on a budget so i can see where all of my money is actually going. it's not like i just spend, spend, spend. i'm actually really good and not impulse buying and watching my pennies, it's just that i don't keep a good enough watch on exactly how much i'm spending on things like coffee, or dining out. i think it will be really beneficial to me, especially when i get another job.
it weird for me to think that i'm already 1/8 done with college. it's kind of crazy to think about it in that sense. after this semester i will be 25% done. done. done. but then i'll be thrown violently into the real world, in which i will have to get a job and find somewhere to live. i don't really want to think about it.
i absolutely cannot wait to get my car over to spokane. it's gonna be amazing. i'm so excited to be able to go to starbucks to get coffee instead of at the school coffee shop. and it's gonna be nice to do my homework there. it will just be really mentally helpful to be able to get off campus and out of the pinecone curtain more often. not to mention, now i can easily go to more shows, which i've been missing. there haven't been a ton that i've missed, but some good ones like holyfield, anberlin, and straylight run have been sacrificed.
tomorrow is valentine's day, but i like to call it "single's awareness day". but honestly, i don't care at all. to me, it's just like any other day of the year. although, it's probably going to be kind of annoying to see people walking around with roses and crap. oh well. it's really just a hallmark holiday anyway. and seriously, i don't care that i'm single. in fact, it makes life a lot easier. i have more than enough love in my life from god and family.
i've really been missing my puppies recently. i used to take bubba practically everywhere with me besides school. i would take him along on any short trip. i really miss that. it was really nice to have a little buddy to bring along with me. it kind of amazes me how much i can miss little animals that can't even talk.
my math class is really wonderful...or something. it so easy - finite math for social sciences. today we learned about budgeting and taxes, which has really made me realize that i don't keep good enough track of my money. rebecca let me put her microsoft money on my computer, so i'm starting to work on a budget so i can see where all of my money is actually going. it's not like i just spend, spend, spend. i'm actually really good and not impulse buying and watching my pennies, it's just that i don't keep a good enough watch on exactly how much i'm spending on things like coffee, or dining out. i think it will be really beneficial to me, especially when i get another job.
it weird for me to think that i'm already 1/8 done with college. it's kind of crazy to think about it in that sense. after this semester i will be 25% done. done. done. but then i'll be thrown violently into the real world, in which i will have to get a job and find somewhere to live. i don't really want to think about it.
i absolutely cannot wait to get my car over to spokane. it's gonna be amazing. i'm so excited to be able to go to starbucks to get coffee instead of at the school coffee shop. and it's gonna be nice to do my homework there. it will just be really mentally helpful to be able to get off campus and out of the pinecone curtain more often. not to mention, now i can easily go to more shows, which i've been missing. there haven't been a ton that i've missed, but some good ones like holyfield, anberlin, and straylight run have been sacrificed.
tomorrow is valentine's day, but i like to call it "single's awareness day". but honestly, i don't care at all. to me, it's just like any other day of the year. although, it's probably going to be kind of annoying to see people walking around with roses and crap. oh well. it's really just a hallmark holiday anyway. and seriously, i don't care that i'm single. in fact, it makes life a lot easier. i have more than enough love in my life from god and family.
i've really been missing my puppies recently. i used to take bubba practically everywhere with me besides school. i would take him along on any short trip. i really miss that. it was really nice to have a little buddy to bring along with me. it kind of amazes me how much i can miss little animals that can't even talk.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
the headaches come and go
oh geez, it's been a long time....and how i've missed this. spring semester started on tuesday, and i'm really enjoying most of my classes. the only one i really don't like is 'business information systems'....we do work with excel and access...which i currently know nothing about. at least i have a friend in the class, so it makes it a little less horrible, haha.
well, since my last blog, i got a car! yessssssssssss. it's a 1996 white VW golf. i'm pretty much obsessed with it. unfortunately, i only had it two days before i had to come back to school. and of course, i couldn't bring it back to school with all of the insane snow...it would be especially difficult to get over the pass. but, i will be bringing it back after spring break. i can't wait to be able to go off campus.
i worked out today...it felt really good. though, for some reason, i started feeling really sick at about 3. i'm basically really, really sick to my stomach and the headaches come and go. i absolutely hate being sick. and for me, being sick to my stomach is the worst kind of sick. i would definitely rather be sneezy and coughy.
it's been soo long since my last blog, but i really don't have that much to talk about. what a boring life i have.
it hasn't snowed in a while. it's weird not feeling like you're going to fall and make a fool of yourself every time you go outside. the sidewalks get so ridiculously icy. i haven't fallen yet, which is kinda a miracle, but i'm sure it will happen sooner or later.
the writer's strike is over, at least that's what i've heard. thank God for that. this means new episodes of the office soon, and that makes me very happy.
well, since my last blog, i got a car! yessssssssssss. it's a 1996 white VW golf. i'm pretty much obsessed with it. unfortunately, i only had it two days before i had to come back to school. and of course, i couldn't bring it back to school with all of the insane snow...it would be especially difficult to get over the pass. but, i will be bringing it back after spring break. i can't wait to be able to go off campus.
i worked out today...it felt really good. though, for some reason, i started feeling really sick at about 3. i'm basically really, really sick to my stomach and the headaches come and go. i absolutely hate being sick. and for me, being sick to my stomach is the worst kind of sick. i would definitely rather be sneezy and coughy.
it's been soo long since my last blog, but i really don't have that much to talk about. what a boring life i have.
it hasn't snowed in a while. it's weird not feeling like you're going to fall and make a fool of yourself every time you go outside. the sidewalks get so ridiculously icy. i haven't fallen yet, which is kinda a miracle, but i'm sure it will happen sooner or later.
the writer's strike is over, at least that's what i've heard. thank God for that. this means new episodes of the office soon, and that makes me very happy.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
only two days of class left
you know what i love? i love not having class on fridays. i had a three day week this week. it's simply amazing. tonight we are ordering pizza at 10:00 and watching 300, which i've never seen. i'm pretty pumped.
i am currently obsessed with 'stronger' by kanye...such an amazing song. love it.
i fear i don't have much to report today. my life is pretty boring right now. i fell asleep in class today....and yesterday....and the day before. i hate it. i'm not normally a person to fall asleep in class. the thing is, pretty much everyone is falling asleep, not just me. it is so boring that no matter how hard i try to stay awake, i always end up asleep for at least a couple minutes every day. i feel bad about it, but i don't know what else to do. i've tried everything to stay awake....food, water, texting.
i'm going to a movie tomorrow...but i don't know whether to go see atonement or 27 dresses. opinions? oh, oh, go see cloverfield! it is amazing! after it was over, i was so sick to my stomach that i got dizzy when i stood up. then my hands were literally shaking for about an hour after it ended...my barfy feeling didn't go away before i went to bed that night. i don't know if i could ever watch it on a big screen again, but i definitely recommend it. go. now.
only two days of class left! though i still have a lot of work to do before jan term is over. i have to write a 4-5 page paper before monday...plus two extra credit papers that i'm going to have to write on sunday night...yay. i really need to enjoy my weekend because once sunday comes, it's all over. BUT i get to go home on tuesday, which i can't wait for. for some reason i've really been missing my smushy-faced puggy wiggy lately. and my kitten. and mooky of course. i really can't wait to see them, and sleep in my amazing bed, and be able to drive around, and hopefully go car shopping with my dad :] just like old times. oh man, i'm really needing a break. even though i do have a lot of down time, i really just can't wait to go home and see my parents and pets...just home.
it's been ridiculously cold here lately. i'm pretty sure the last three days it has been 6,7, and 8 degrees when i go to class in the morning. it's a little unreal actually.
ugh. frustration. frustration. frustration. frustration. frustration. i can't stand you.
sorry, just had to get that out.
soo, anyway. i bought almost all of my books for next semester online yesterday...i don't think they are all going to get here in time...it worries me a little. i should have done it earlier, but i didn't. it's good though cause i saved probably 150-200 dollars buying them used online.
i've been trying to find more shows to watch online, now that i've finished re-watching lost and getting caught up on heroes. i watched the gauntlet III on mtv.com today. it was spectacular as usual. then i watched three episodes of rob and big. i forgot how much i love that show...it's so hilarious. i have so much free time right now that it's almost annoying. oh, and i got out of class early today and i was so happy cause i could actually watch ellen! i haven't been able to watch it in forever. it was disappointing though because she didn't have any good guests or anything. i was sad.
wow...i can't believe i actually wrote this much when literally NOTHING has happened since my last blog. this is how bored i am. i write about nothing.
i am currently obsessed with 'stronger' by kanye...such an amazing song. love it.
i fear i don't have much to report today. my life is pretty boring right now. i fell asleep in class today....and yesterday....and the day before. i hate it. i'm not normally a person to fall asleep in class. the thing is, pretty much everyone is falling asleep, not just me. it is so boring that no matter how hard i try to stay awake, i always end up asleep for at least a couple minutes every day. i feel bad about it, but i don't know what else to do. i've tried everything to stay awake....food, water, texting.
i'm going to a movie tomorrow...but i don't know whether to go see atonement or 27 dresses. opinions? oh, oh, go see cloverfield! it is amazing! after it was over, i was so sick to my stomach that i got dizzy when i stood up. then my hands were literally shaking for about an hour after it ended...my barfy feeling didn't go away before i went to bed that night. i don't know if i could ever watch it on a big screen again, but i definitely recommend it. go. now.
only two days of class left! though i still have a lot of work to do before jan term is over. i have to write a 4-5 page paper before monday...plus two extra credit papers that i'm going to have to write on sunday night...yay. i really need to enjoy my weekend because once sunday comes, it's all over. BUT i get to go home on tuesday, which i can't wait for. for some reason i've really been missing my smushy-faced puggy wiggy lately. and my kitten. and mooky of course. i really can't wait to see them, and sleep in my amazing bed, and be able to drive around, and hopefully go car shopping with my dad :] just like old times. oh man, i'm really needing a break. even though i do have a lot of down time, i really just can't wait to go home and see my parents and pets...just home.
it's been ridiculously cold here lately. i'm pretty sure the last three days it has been 6,7, and 8 degrees when i go to class in the morning. it's a little unreal actually.
ugh. frustration. frustration. frustration. frustration. frustration. i can't stand you.
sorry, just had to get that out.
soo, anyway. i bought almost all of my books for next semester online yesterday...i don't think they are all going to get here in time...it worries me a little. i should have done it earlier, but i didn't. it's good though cause i saved probably 150-200 dollars buying them used online.
i've been trying to find more shows to watch online, now that i've finished re-watching lost and getting caught up on heroes. i watched the gauntlet III on mtv.com today. it was spectacular as usual. then i watched three episodes of rob and big. i forgot how much i love that show...it's so hilarious. i have so much free time right now that it's almost annoying. oh, and i got out of class early today and i was so happy cause i could actually watch ellen! i haven't been able to watch it in forever. it was disappointing though because she didn't have any good guests or anything. i was sad.
wow...i can't believe i actually wrote this much when literally NOTHING has happened since my last blog. this is how bored i am. i write about nothing.
Monday, January 21, 2008
i feel like i'm accomplishing nothing
i start class again tomorrow, after a wonderfully relaxing three day weekend. both saturday and today i slept in past 11, which is just wonderful (luckily i have another three day weekend next weekend...only three days of class this week). i went to two churches on sunday for my music of the christian church class. one of them was a gregorian chant mass at gonzaga...yeah, try and figure that one out. it was insanely awkward and i don't think i would ever choose to go again. i also went to whitworth community presbyterian church which actually wasn't as bad as i remember it being. i think i might go again simply because i have no way of getting to the church that i actually want to go to. oh well. hopefully i will be able to get a car soon and then i can drive myself wherever the heck i want to go.
jan term has gone by so fast. i only have five days of class left which is really weird. i'm glad though, cause i find my class quite boring. i spent almost two hours online today listening to hundereds of songs trying to find one to write my 4-5 page paper on. i really, really don't like the classical music we listen to in class. if it's choral, i can never understand what they are singing, and i just dislike the non-choral stuff we've been listening to. finally i found a piano recording of a bach piece, which was perfect because i could listen to piano all day long.
i feel like these last few weeks have been a waste of time. i spent the afternoons rewatching the third season of lost, then started watching the second season of heroes. plus me and rebecca have been watching the second season of lost at the same time. i do some homework, but it doesn't take too long, which is nice, but i feel like i'm accomplishing nothing, and i hate that feeling.
i have decided that i really want to learn to play guitar. the issue is that even if i were to take lessons here, i have no way of getting a guitar back to school with me...so that plan is kinda shot. even if i were to try and teach myself, i still have no way of getting a guitar back with me. oh well, i guess i will try to do it in the summer or something.
i had a good thing happen today. it was nice. oh, and i rejoiced that the coffee shop was open today...i hadn't had a latte in three days. i think i'm becoming a little addicted to vanilla lattes...it's definitely not good.
why is it that i always feel, hm, what's the word...not quite...there? i feel like i'm always missing the mark. that i try and try and try my hardest and it is never good enough.
i really miss riding...more than anyone will know. i think that even if i could just be with some horses for a few hours a week, i would be a much happier person. too bad this isn't really a possibility right now. once i get a car, i am going to find a barn to either work at or volunteer at, or find some horse to ride. it's been about five months since i've ridden, but it seems like an eternity. who knew it meant so much to me? oh wait, i did. i guess i just thought i would be okay without it for a while, but it's been a lot harder than i thought it was going to be.
my google weather man says it's currently 13 degrees out. yikes! i might freeze over here in spokane. ew. spokane. i can't wait to finish college and move back to beautiful seattle.
jan term has gone by so fast. i only have five days of class left which is really weird. i'm glad though, cause i find my class quite boring. i spent almost two hours online today listening to hundereds of songs trying to find one to write my 4-5 page paper on. i really, really don't like the classical music we listen to in class. if it's choral, i can never understand what they are singing, and i just dislike the non-choral stuff we've been listening to. finally i found a piano recording of a bach piece, which was perfect because i could listen to piano all day long.
i feel like these last few weeks have been a waste of time. i spent the afternoons rewatching the third season of lost, then started watching the second season of heroes. plus me and rebecca have been watching the second season of lost at the same time. i do some homework, but it doesn't take too long, which is nice, but i feel like i'm accomplishing nothing, and i hate that feeling.
i have decided that i really want to learn to play guitar. the issue is that even if i were to take lessons here, i have no way of getting a guitar back to school with me...so that plan is kinda shot. even if i were to try and teach myself, i still have no way of getting a guitar back with me. oh well, i guess i will try to do it in the summer or something.
i had a good thing happen today. it was nice. oh, and i rejoiced that the coffee shop was open today...i hadn't had a latte in three days. i think i'm becoming a little addicted to vanilla lattes...it's definitely not good.
why is it that i always feel, hm, what's the word...not quite...there? i feel like i'm always missing the mark. that i try and try and try my hardest and it is never good enough.
i really miss riding...more than anyone will know. i think that even if i could just be with some horses for a few hours a week, i would be a much happier person. too bad this isn't really a possibility right now. once i get a car, i am going to find a barn to either work at or volunteer at, or find some horse to ride. it's been about five months since i've ridden, but it seems like an eternity. who knew it meant so much to me? oh wait, i did. i guess i just thought i would be okay without it for a while, but it's been a lot harder than i thought it was going to be.
my google weather man says it's currently 13 degrees out. yikes! i might freeze over here in spokane. ew. spokane. i can't wait to finish college and move back to beautiful seattle.
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